we are young.

Wonder.

Wednesday, September 9, 2015 ? 0 Atashinchi ?

Sometimes, I wonder if I'm ever good enough in anyone's eyes; be it my parents', boyfriend's, or even friends and teachers...

As far as I recall, the last time I've made my peers proud was during the release of Y2 term 1 results on BB. Everyone was genuinely happy for me.

From then on, everything seemed to go downhill again. Yet a repetition of Y1 saga.

I'm trying to keep myself afloat for as much as possible, despite all of these incoming backlashes.

These days, I've been receiving derogatory comments and negative criticism from the people I love.

I wonder how it'll be like for me to leave this world without a single trace. Will anyone miss me at all, even if it was just for a brief moment? Or even cry buckets of tears over me while being filled with regret?

For now, I will not do such silly acts. But if the time comes whereby I cannot withstand this any longer....that's it.

Thanks for reading :)

Saturday, March 9, 2013 ? 0 Atashinchi ?

it's so heartbreaking to know that the person whom you have a crush on is already attached to someone else.

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Wednesday, October 31, 2012 ? 0 Atashinchi ?

Has been a long time since I last wrote in here.
About that last post, I do not have any feelings for Isaac anymore.
I found out that he's a total arsehole,
and what my friends told me about him were true.
Why did I ever fall in love with him in the first place?
Sigh.

Thanks for reading :)

Never mind I'll find someone like you.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012 ? 0 Atashinchi ?

SA1 results were absolutely shitty as hell.
Achieved borderline passes for both Physics and Chemistry, when I had actually expected myself to attain straight As.
E Math paper 1 was also a borderline pass. If not for my carelessness and miscellaneous mistakes, I would've gotten much better marks.
The other papers are still unknown.

I really hate myself in times like this.
It's like one moment everything's perfectly fine, and the next you're crashing downhill.
I can't get my concepts right, but I can understand the contents of the textbook.
During examinations, my brain would be in a heavy state of confusion.
It's just like a big blob of chewing gum sitting right in front of my path, blocking my way.
Like seriously, a big, fat, extremely gigantic one.
I have to think twice before deciding which armor to use to shield myself against the clutches of this evil monster.
If I made a wrong move, I would be doomed.
But I wasn't sure which was the correct decision to help myself defeat him.
Sigh.
Life sucks at the moment.

But I think..maybe...not so much.
Because I am, shamelessly, proud to announce that Isaac & I got the same overall marks for Chemistry.
Omg, such a coincidence.
Nothing like this has ever happened to me and my previous crushes before.
Now everything which I don't expect is happening right before my very eyes now.
Yeah I'm blushing, got a problem?

I LIKE YOU ALOT ISAAC CHUA. I REALLY DO.

Thanks for reading :)

jfelrkgfe

Friday, April 27, 2012 ? 0 Atashinchi ?

FREAKING STUPID SHIT

WHY DO I ALWAYS FEEL SO INSECURE THESE DAYS

INSECURITY HAS GOTTEN INTO ME

INFUSED WITH DEPRESSION AND STRESS

GAHHHHH

bye.

Thanks for reading :)

Fire away, fire away.

Monday, March 12, 2012 ? 0 Atashinchi ?

Dear Isaac Chua,

I have to admit, you're funny.
But you can be a total jerk sometimes.
Why must you always act like you're the boss?
It's just a group work.
Everyone are supposed to discuss about the details calmly.
But noo, you decided to flare up and push the blame to me.
Like seriously, I'm not the one at fault here.
You're the problem.
The biggest problem.
And the fact that you always show me your bitchy attitude makes me wanna punch your face so badly.
Why must you irritate me alot?

But now,
I guess your're getting better.
And you having a better attitude means me liking you even more.
And me liking you even more means FALLING FOR YOU.

Despite your lame jokes, they're always very appealing to me.
Like teasing the teachers and other people during class time,
especially during Mr Leow's and Ms Ng Sooling's class.
And i still remember the occasional pranks that you play on me.
I may dislike it at first, but thinking back, it actually leaves a good memory in me.
So I guess good times last forever yeah?

I know that I have no chance of winning your heart, so I guess we can just remain friends forever (:

xx

Thanks for reading :)

See ya.

Friday, January 20, 2012 ? 0 Atashinchi ?

DEAR HAKIM TAN,

SORRY, BUT I'VE GOT NO MORE FEELINGS FOR YOU. </3

Thanks for reading :)

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